Things are going well on the sporty front, I’ve managed to go to the gym twice per week the last two weeks, AND I also managed to get the hubby to get a subscription, so we could go together! It’s always more fun with someone else 🙂
And since this period in my life is a journey of healing, reconstruction and transformation, I’ve decided to offer myself an early x-mas/b-day present: a personal trainer. Just to help me get started. To help me train the right way to achieve my goals. To motivate me when my body acts as an enemy and I just want to feel sorry for myself. To make me enjoy physical activity, and help me keep the habit for the rest of my life. It’s far from being cheap, but I think it’s worth every euro. I’ve talked to him a few times already, about my goals, what I want to achieve, and I think there’s a good connection there. I’m meeting him again this evening for a real intake, with measurements, weight, etc. and goals setting, so we can start working together. I think it’s going to be fun!
Yesterday was a really good day. I think I have to mark 11-12-2012 in my calendar or something. At work I had a wonderful chat with a coach, who is also there to help me through this journey – not only on the work front, but also in my personal life. She shared great insights and I came out of her office lifted, optimistic, relieved and confident. Then in the evening after work I went to the gym and I did something I’ve missed so badly and could only dream of doing again: I ran. Not fast, not for long (I did the first training of Start to Run, a podcast series from Belgium, similar to the Couch potato to 5K program), but I ran. It was the best. feeling. ever. The feeling of achievement was almost too overwhelming, I thought I was going to cry! I’ve come such a long way…
The road ahead is still long and tortuous, I’m about to start a heavy hormonal treatment that I know from experience is going to make me feel tired and cause me a lot of pain, but I am determined to not let it stop me. I will listen to my body, but instead of working against it, I will work with it.
I think I got my mojo back 🙂